TW trauma and medical and deatht
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Please read carefully, from a concerned Ray and system,
We are freaking out about the Corona Virus, and not only that, but we are worried about the state of us medically. We are 88 pounds now, and we can’t get enough fluids or calories. We emailed our POTS specialist yesterday, and he is going to send our PCP some recommendations for IV fluids as a standing order or even home IV infusions. Yesterday, our heart rate got up to 141, even after taking our heart rate medication, and our blood pressure was 80/50. We are damn scared. We don’t want to die!! Our dietitian isn’t going to our GI appointment with us after all. She didn’t see the point. She said it wouldn’t be feasible. We spoke to the social worker for our course and to our instructor, and they are verry supportive and understanding. They said they wouldn’t let our DVR counselor take us out of the class. If we didn’t have that course, we would drive ourselves crazy with to much time on our hands thinking about everyting going on right now for us. During the day, our heart rate goes into the low 40’s at times. It’s scary, but the local hospital won’t do anything. We just have to wait to see the GI doctor. And now that we might be needing a feeding tube, Meridian has agreed that they will pay for the out-of-state treatment that we have been trying to get them to pay for for the past 3 years, but here’s the problem with that now. If we get the feeding tube, no residential place, or even River Oaks for that matter, will accept us because they don’t have the medical oversight to manage a J-tube. So, we are so close, but yet so so far away. We don’t want to die!! This is medical neglect. This is bringing up a lot of trauma stuff for us as well. We are trying our hardest to just hang on and not be swept away by all our emotions. We know we need help, but the medical system is failing us, big time!! Not sure how much more of it we can take, both physically, or mentally. We have no backup crisis plan, because no one knows what to do, and no place will take us because we are to complex and considered a liability. We can’t do standard eating disorder treatment programs, because we have an almost completely paralyzed stomach, so we are just told to wait and see GI. We were given a list of foods to avoid and ones to try by our dietitian, but the list is in print, and she just said it’s about trial and error. We were only able to finish half of an 8 ounce shake in her office on Monday. She could tell we were struggling, and she said she didn’t see an eating disorder when she looked at us. She also saw the results of our gastric emptying study, and she said an eating disorder wouldn’t cause results that severe. Doctors don’t know enough about this condition, and there is not enough research being done on it. We are desperate for some kind of hope.
We also found out that our worker that comes 4 days of the week can no longer work for us, so it’s back to not knowing who will come the next day except for Tuesdays. Ugh!!
Ray et al